plans....

Although I strongly believe everything happens for a reason and that God has a plan for everything.... I am still a major planner, for everything. I like to know what is going to happen and how it is going to happen. And if it doesn't goes as planned I have back up "plans". :) I think it stems from my unstable childhood-hahaha- I know that is a little deep but I think it's the truth.I crave schedule and structure....

Anyways, with the baby being here in a little less then 5 wks I thought I had a pretty good idea of how some things were going to go. I am trying to be flexible except for a few major things that I had my heart set on.One being Anthony taking some vacation days on top of the 10 days he gets for "free" ( paternity leave) . Well it looks like they(being the army) are not going to approve his requested leave. At first I was so sad and cried and felt completely overwhelemed. But then I pulled myself together and realized how lucky I am that he gets 10 days to be with us, 10 days that he will still be getting payed for. Of course I am still bummed and hate when things don't go as planned but life happens, things change ....

The one good thing out of him not getting the vacation days he wanted is that means he will be out of the army 9 days sooner! :) That means 6 months from today we will be done with TX and on our way back to CA!

halloween bugs me...

I love the costume,candy and pumpkin carving part of Halloween but everything else just bugs me. Now even more that I have a little one.

Last night we ran into walgreens really quick to grab something to drink, to get to the drinks we had to pass the Halloween aisle. Anthony and I didn't even think about it until Ty's body was clinging to us like his life depended on it. There were spooky looking skeletons hanging from the ceiling and scary masks galore. Poor thing was so freaked out and kept saying he didn't like the scary bones. And really i don't either.Anthony thinks its kinda funny but he also likes all that scray crap. He also doesn't have to deal with a scared 3 yr old crawling into his side of the bed EVERY night....

*sigh*

I know I can not shelter Ty from everything that is scary, but I would like to be able to go to the store with out being overwhelmed with all the scary crap of halloween.

all in one, one size

Here are the diapers I ordered, I didn't get this color though..... too green for me.

I was going for the easiest route possible. These are all in one diapers and suppose to be pretty easy. And they also are one size fits all so for the entire time the baby will be in diapers I should be able to use them.

Here's to hoping they are as great as the reviews have said....

32 weeks

Today I am 32 wks, our baby girl will be here in 7 weeks!!In seven weeks we will be a family of four.

I can't believe she is going to be here so soon. I only need a few more things and I will be completely ready...well as ready as I can be.

I finally ordered her cloth diapers and I can not wait until they come in the mail. I wanted to do cloth with Ty but chickened out. There is no turning back now, they have been payed for and I have even convinced Anthony that it is a good thing,he is happy about how much money we will be saving.

Ty kisses my belly and tells me how much he loves his baby, hopefully he will feel the same way when we bring her home from the hospital.:)

ready or not...

Anthony has a little less then 7 months left of his army enlistment....and I feel a million different emotions about it. We have been talking about what our plans are and what we are going to do school , work and money wise. And it is SO stressful!! I now understand why people never get out of the army,even though it sucks the pay check is constant and there is no fear of losing your job. But I guess this is where faith comes in. I do NOT want to stay in the army because of fear. I just need to trust that God will provide for us, even though it is SO hard sitting back having NO idea what we are going to do...

one of those days...

today was one of those days where nothing seemed to go right.It started with tossing and turning all night instead of sleeping and then waking up extra early to get to my doctors appointment but being late anyways because I couldn't find parking.And then getting a text from Anthony saying it would be 4 more days until he would be coming home, and then hearing Ty's little voice come from the back sit saying he missed Daddy. Then getting home and stubbing my pinky toe so bad that it bleed, and I could go on and on about the things that went wrong today....

But instead I am going to sum it up to being just one of those days and be happy that it is over!

Tomorrow is a new day.....

random things...

-its good to be back in Tx but lonely as hell, I hate when Anthony is gone

-Ty turned 3 and is starting preschool next week I can NOT believe it!

-on monday I will be 28 wks pregnant,so close

-took Ty to his 3 yr old check up he is 30 pds and 37 in

-i will be 25 on the 26th of this month, I think I am going to have a mid life crisis

-the only thing that sounds good to eat lately is chocolate, good thing I am too lazy to go to the store and buy some

-every morning Ty crawls in my bed to hug me and tell me "I love you SO much!" melts my heart every single time

-7 months 15 days until we will hopefully be DONE with the army